First Train Home

what's larger than life? (a sad rant don't read if you're depressed )

2012-02-14T01:56:00.008+08:00

There are a hundred things she has tried to chase away but she can't even let herself think about because that's when the birds scream and the worms crawl and somewhere in her mind it's always raining a slow endless drizzle..

and so how else could I be of help, I rly don't know. Is there a way we could just skip that part of life and start all over again? Who'd have known how bittersweet this would taste....

Sometimes it last in love, but sometimes it hurts instead (so true)

2012-02-06T02:38:00.000+08:00

2012-01-20T04:08:00.002+08:00

It might sound early, but i'm alrd planning for a bday that is two months away.. well, sorta managing the extra work i've given myself apart from rushing my final year's. not goooood at all. I shd be focusing on my work right now. Everything just came so quickly I feel like there's no time complete the things i want to do : ( even gotta work and earn some cash when it's cny!! don't even get to meet kenny cuz he has finally found a new job. he can't stay at home and play his games all day anymore and get fat. what is this pffft no more chubby kenneth?! oh no

Also, i've been rly tired staying up in sch the whole night tryna blow some acrylic then bend then blow the bend gosh jst keel me alrd will you

takemetotravel

2012-01-20T02:18:00.000+08:00

2012-01-12T03:15:00.001+08:00

aiyaaa phuck

2012-01-12T02:01:00.001+08:00

hate doing autocad so much

hoping the shipping takes 12days exactly

2012-01-09T04:18:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna be the one to say, "Goodbye" but I will
I will
I will
I don't wanna sit on the pavement while you fly but I will

2012-01-02T06:11:00.000+08:00

I'm nvr good enough for you

BACK

2011-12-19T03:43:00.001+08:00

v v v v v exhausted but had a good time in China! : )

take your pick

2011-11-27T05:45:00.002+08:00

2011-11-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

2011-11-24T04:46:00.000+08:00

move bitch, get out the way get out the way bitch, get out the way

2011-11-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

y is my face gettin fatter each day

2011-11-16T00:17:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wished tht we weren't as close so I don't have to be upset dwelling on our friendship. so fkin depressed I can say its also probly th mood swng. I just want to graduate.

monthly thingum

2011-11-15T03:29:00.000+08:00

dying.... in 3 2 1

2011-11-14T01:14:00.004+08:00

So freaky. why do people carry two faces when you can just be honest? you want fame you can have it but fuck you srsly

and this time i have to blame gravity for breaking my fav red sunglasses!! urghhhh rahhhh -whining-

2011-11-07T01:35:00.004+08:00

I AM SO BORED MOOOOO doing business logistics makes me tired. I want a holiday

2011-11-03T03:50:00.002+08:00

hush hush darling~~

2011-10-31T01:23:00.003+08:00

Does anyone ever experience mild cramps when your not having period or anytime soon?
Cuz I do.

It just mean you could probably be having cancer/menopause. EAT HEALTHY. Don't keep late nights like me (becuz I have studio)

KILL ME NOW..

2011-10-30T02:18:00.001+08:00

Crumbling like pastries
And they scream The worst things in life come free to us
Cos we're just under the upperhand
And go mad for a couple of grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight

IT'S HALLOWEEN.

2011-10-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

why the fuck am I still here doing fyp when people r out there celebrating? Guise, this not cool. My project is so low ceiling idk if I'm able to complete in time.. so mad at this PFFFFT

my bf is the next ramsay-to-be

2011-09-22T02:24:00.000+08:00

2011-09-04T00:52:00.001+08:00

don't know if it's me being paranoid, or just hating the world today.

2011-09-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

Eat do sigh, eat do sigh. :(

it's okay, everythings gonna be alright...

2011-08-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

YOU CANNOT FATHOM THE IMMENSITY OF THE FUCK I FEEL NOW

2011-08-15T03:17:00.001+08:00

jeez, handling video editor at such wee hours. so sleepy and complxion feels like shyt

2011-08-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

nobody really cares if you r miserable, so you might as well be happy :>

what a lazy day

2011-08-12T16:45:00.001+08:00

“Our lack of compassion stems from our inability to see deeply into the nature of things.”

2011-08-12T01:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes it's not becuz i don't care or i don't want to talk. it's becuz i fear that you'd worry and overthink.

futur(ama)e

2011-08-11T15:23:00.001+08:00

2011-08-11T03:53:00.001+08:00

I had a one in a million rare storm tday. Hopefully all's good and yes, all WILL be good I believe :)

goof night everybody!

2011-08-06T03:12:00.003+08:00

Was about to hit the sack then realised maybe i should post an entry first. so hello dear bloggers/ owls. waaaaaassup w the mood tday, i could say it's a rather contradicting one. don't really like the fact that i'm having to mood swing n get sensitive over situations that don't really have issues. for example, i'm upset becuz my thumbdrive is sorta broken but not broken cuz it still reads the memory when the body parts r almost breaking apart. then comes moody Demi taking the walk to vivo.....paused. okay skip this part, so the next issue, why do girls get so sensitive over shytty things? boys pls do the talking here. hahaha just KEEDING. but srsly sigh. can everyone just stay healthy pls? totally abhors illness attack to whomever i love. : ((( in addition, the cost of living!!!! hello S'pore, it's a rich city but some people r not so. people like me. when transportation fare increases, i break down and cry. everytime.

oh dear $$$$ y u so hard to earn!?

◣◣◣

2011-08-02T00:01:00.002+08:00

Do you have to do you have to do you have to let it linger.............. why r you sleeping when i want to hear your voice :<

thanks period

2011-08-01T23:37:00.005+08:00

oh hi period, here you r as I endure your kicks on my tummy once again. oh you, making me cranky tonight n for the next few days.. "BLOODY MONDAY!" as I yelled. (sorry guys, it's my period.)

FORGIVEN.

2011-07-25T23:10:00.001+08:00

Rise of the Planet of the Apes might be the most realistic ape revolution movie ever.

Happy One Year Baby!!!!!!

2011-07-24T16:48:00.003+08:00

Had breakfast in the morning w kennyboy and a short brisk walk at Fort Canning Park before he heads t his frisbee match. time flys it's been a year baby.. and i can't imagine we r both still deeply in love w each other, of course more to come! :) you brought me smiles, happiness, love n sometimes anger(haha), still love you. End your match soon so i can make you banana milkshake(yes, just bought a blender yay!)

n a good dinner w you even tho i'm alrd falling asleep zzzzzzz. HURRY UP feel like having rosti suddenly hmmm

2011-07-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

not to self: stay fuckin happy n not let anything bring me down :) :) :)

2011-07-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

yearn (yûrn)
verb [intrans.]
have an intense feeling of loss or lack and longing for something : [with infinitive]

2011-07-17T23:53:00.001+08:00

y u so meme

2011-07-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

NEED.TO.START.FYP

2011-07-10T17:45:00.006+08:00

Demi wants a pair of total black heels??!

2011-06-30T02:42:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep fuck. I wished that you were here to let me cuddle up in your arms like a lollipop swirl

2011-06-17T12:54:00.000+08:00

Kenneth is writing yayyyy

2011-06-16T12:32:00.002+08:00

fuck ovaries stop giving me temper. ths is true but nah think Ill just remove tt post

god feel so useless in ths industry :(
HALPPP

anyway vote for my friends!
http://www.jovoto.com/contests/garden-goes-balcony/ideas/13900
ok vote vote vote

but then again,

2011-06-08T16:33:00.001+08:00

DON'T

2011-06-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

2011-06-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

2011-05-20T12:36:00.000+08:00

FU cunt. Don't so gross can

2011-05-19T12:41:00.004+08:00

Ive a picture here of the placement for my second tat.
hehehe not so soon tho

I miss Kenneth alrd. can't wait for this thing to end... I hate my job.

2011-05-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

srsly guise
guise srsly
srsly
guise

2011-05-16T12:11:00.002+08:00

Or should I cook pasta? yummmmmm. Im fungry someone help. I should make my way down to get some groceries after work to cook. srsly needa learn good culinary skills alrd, yknow good cooking = boys adore you more hahahaha keeding. but srsly, sewing + cooking starts this wk

2011-05-16T12:02:00.001+08:00

GOTTA WATCH IT! (Y)

omg freaking bored @ work. baking tonight xx

2011-05-04T03:37:00.003+08:00

http://lizplummer.com/blog/2009/07/13/acrylic-paint-on-fabric-some-experiments/

ok so Ive found some research on good acrylic paint on fabrics = fluid acrylic/ this brand called GOLDEN 900 paint

and a whole lot of things to do this term: Im not telling you
hehehe unless Ive accomplished them

eheheh payday!

2011-04-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

I want a pair of red sneakers

2011-04-26T13:05:00.002+08:00

♡ freeziiiiingggg coooold

2011-04-25T17:49:00.001+08:00

I want jelllllly fishy

2011-04-06T03:26:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for family to be back from cruise tmrrrr after my work. which also means that I can't wait to end work tmr it's sucha darn long workin day. glad I had some work assigned today but I swear the workin industry can be v hectic. not that my job is really intense so it's still management(I hope). well.. you can't expect yourself to be going thru simple tasks that anyone can do, this is what made you intelligence in your profession. like way better than anyone can do. sigh brace up! the days of attachment will be over s o o n. bored bored bored. don't know if I can do free cone day now and this sucks. I miss my family so much..... been so lonely thru my first few days of attachment. Kenneth was such a sweetie he spent most times w me after my work and all becos I hate comin home alone when noone's ard. been feelin so emo also Idk why :(

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2011-04-03T01:07:00.006+08:00

this is depressing.. I think my mom is startin to hate me. I dont know what to do n this isnt the end of my life I know i still have a long way to go. wish I could get myself a better grade next sem. Real life starts on monday........

wana leave this country so badly but NO I know I must mend my relationship w my mom before I ever leave. I will nvr hate my mom even if she hates me. I mean we used to be so close and I love her and the only thing that Im annoyed about her is her drinkin addiction and when she's stress and throws her tamtrum at me.
CONTROLLLL

2011-04-01T13:57:00.002+08:00

I don't understand why my mom is so pissed at me. Srsly I know you get stress and all but please try to understand how I'd also feel if you're treatin me like this. If youre angry it upset about sth I do, tell me. Know I've been out all day and haven't been spendin time w you, but I just wana spend my hols away since I only have like 3 days left. I'm sorry mummy I really wana be your good daughter, know I can't be the best of yet

2011-04-01T05:29:00.001+08:00

I can't wait to wear my new (maxi) dress to work. So I might wear it tmr to play nation

2011-03-23T04:04:00.004+08:00

sigh I don't feel good. this is bad. ICE CREAM TMRRR

2011-03-23T04:04:00.001+08:00

I miss you kenneth. thursday faster come

2011-03-17T12:44:00.000+08:00

Time for a new iPhone cover!

2011-03-12T01:31:00.001+08:00

ok I think choppy is kinda sick, she's losin fur D:
gonna bring her to a vet soon if i can find one

2011-03-12T01:25:00.001+08:00

Are you home safely?

2011-02-24T04:21:00.002+08:00

time checked: 4.21am
go to sleep demi goh.

and and happy 7th love : )
You are amazing I love you.

ermm time for some potential work nw, or should I just spend this last hols of my teenage days partyin and going crazy before I get my attachment? hmmm

2011-02-20T07:23:00.002+08:00

I swear my health has been deterioratin since wed. Everyday I get to see morning and thats not cool. I feel so gross. yuck

2011-02-20T02:59:00.003+08:00

the purple grapes tasted like blue berries. Question: are they purple berries?

2011-02-19T18:17:00.001+08:00

Milkshake + anything cold that could freeze up my brain for awhile and away from work, would be the best thing in life now.

2011-02-18T06:48:00.002+08:00

morning kenneth

k need to work on my studio. so tired alreadyyy

2011-02-14T03:54:00.002+08:00

i've had quite a lethargic day, helpin the folks' all day and now i have to do a submission for tomorrow, i have three assessments this week as well. i just want kenneth to be here :(

2011-02-07T05:51:00.002+08:00

Broke $_$

paul frank makes you happy because monkeys do.

Im horngryyyyyyy!

2011-02-07T04:03:00.006+08:00

ah ah ah Stanley, my baby nephew is the cutest baby ever. I dont think Ill be an ideal parent now. I mean, it really isnt easy to bring up a kid when you dont have plans before bearin one. Because what makes a good mum is being responsible, spendin quality time w kids and what more. Yes I really do love kids but upbringin is still utmost impt rather than wantin a kid. Hmmm.. serious consideration needed! Relax guys, Im just plannin for my future. haha its too early tho I know. Ok it also depends if my hubby wants to have kids, Im cool w it of course. Cute little BABYCAKES running ard the house. Cant imagine that :))) just thinkin. Ill just have to mature and keep up w parental issues. not a problem at all.

hehehe actually.. Im a little nervous.

2011-02-06T05:06:00.002+08:00

Bought two bags today. Met kenneth. Lost a bit of $ durin blackjack. still doing good as I type these. shoot myself to sleep.

2011-02-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

I love my baby <3

Just sayin' :D

2011-01-27T02:06:00.002+08:00

Ok It's rainin again. sleep time!

btw bought a new book by Jasper FForde. Think Imma turn myself into Boo Radley during the free time and start playin the guitar again. Geek is me.

2011-01-26T03:59:00.002+08:00

Oh yes. I need a new pair of good shoes so I can wear my ripped stocking. and yay.. its rainin!

2011-01-26T03:55:00.001+08:00

Got a business presentation tmrw. Slides not done and i need sleeppp. damn eyebags

2011-01-24T02:16:00.001+08:00

I think Im in love w birds.

2011-01-22T21:56:00.001+08:00

I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

2011-01-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

whooooo. Kenny and I are gonna get a hamster in feb. Its name is prolly gonna be fork or spoon, maybe fork and spoon cos Kenny wants to get 2 but I insist on 1! so they wont get jealous and depression. I cant fuckin wait.

2011-01-16T03:44:00.000+08:00

Baby Baby Baby

2011-01-16T03:00:00.002+08:00

I need some diet or sth. Fats are surroundin me. This means joggin time tmr before meetin kennath (haha)

Im ridin on a unicorn, doing flips and shit.

2011-01-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

Five things i wana do now

get my vid done
cut my hair short
do well in sch. im seriouss
spend time w my family and Kenneth
Tone my body

and of course, meet up w my besties and bnjs lovely girls.

Im so sleepy

My boyfriend is sound asleep next to me

2011-01-10T19:59:00.001+08:00

Snoozing away like a little bubba. so koooote. hope he gets well so i can have the time of my life again

2011-01-10T04:10:00.000+08:00

Bitch please, i'm a unicorn.

2011-01-06T22:52:00.002+08:00

I feel so empty : (

I needa get myself back on track nowww. I need to be drown w the latest updates not just from fb news feed!

omgg tired tired tired

2011-01-02T11:40:00.000+08:00

Fuck you Im zombie.

2011-01-02T10:29:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you have to be your own hero.

MARRY HOLIDAYS!

2010-12-28T03:35:00.005+08:00

Work tmr. no fuckin life. been rather moody but everythings gonna be fineee. HI TUESDAY! : )))

Btw a nice meetup w Lydia tday!! had Ewf and watched a magician does his v cool trixs. Cuz his trixs were too good tt imma go watch him perform at 4d magix tmr at imbiah sentosa. Come watchhhhh its awesome (Y)

gonna start doin work on thurs.. period

2010-12-19T05:13:00.001+08:00

Im hungry. Get me a burgerrr

2010-12-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

So it seems like youve changed. Ive always treated you like a sister but look at how the fuck you are treatin me. Not even a thank you for whatever ive helped you in, or findin you a job. I cant believe I am so naive always givin in to you when you dont fuckin know how the fuck I feel to be treated like some idiot now that we rarely meet. Fuck you Fuck everything

2010-12-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

yer so fuckin cute :)

2010-12-10T01:39:00.003+08:00

Urgh.

omfg just realised how long have i not watch a movie. :'( damnnn i hate sch! Looks like i cant work much this the next two weeks cos of submission but really need to earn some $$$ for the stupid fees now that ive spent on a laptop and so many other stuffs. i cant even catch a movie and shop for xmas : (

2010-12-09T02:38:00.002+08:00

Boreddddd i need some mthrfckin inspirations oh my. tumblr isnt workin at point of time. sigh

Two handsss

2010-11-29T04:45:00.001+08:00

clap your hands if youre workin too hard

2010-11-28T06:13:00.002+08:00

It's 6.14am now and Im still awake doin the business complilation thingy. My brain is barely respondin. zzzz

2010-11-27T01:21:00.003+08:00

Mah babe fell asleep. fml

2010-11-24T02:27:00.004+08:00

So the last stick after watchin The Charlatans with Kenneth, they were awesome. Unfortunately, Kenneth fell sick today :'( i hope you get better tmr, have ample of water and rest. Happy anniversary hun! love youuuu :B im still thinkin of how to make you healthy again hmmmm

no more sticks from now on. ill be a good girl ha ha ahhhhhh period sucks

2010-11-23T05:11:00.003+08:00

Ive always hated myself for choosin the wrong stuffs, esp when it comes to directions. And the fact that i hate my sch so much, i dont even wana strive to get good grades as i dont look forward to wakin up for sch every fuckin mornin. Queezin into the train is alr a torture and dreadin sch makes it worst.

Away you go negative thots! At least gimme me the space and motivation to do my work :) And and and i miss tiggy and joel!! : ( technically its tabitha.

but yayyyy the only thing i look forward tmr is to watch The Charlatans with Kenneth! tho i havent heard of em before. Just one more day and ill look back to realise how COLOURFUL was created 4months ago hehehe